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#107 Mrs. Cassie DeRas

Evil Emperor Nick

on May 22, 2006

Well my birthday is tomorrow, but it looks like I'm not going to have much of a party. My grandfather is slowly dying. He just has a mini-stroke yesterday. Combined with his other health problems like diabetes & kidney failure he probably won't live out more then another year maybe two if we are lucky. He is probably going into assisted living once he gets out of the emergency care. I know he isn't looking forward to that.

Its heavy stuff no question about it. Complications is a lot like taxes. Your always trying to keep them down. It seems a lot of complications are popping up these days. Like tonight I spent all night getting stuff from my grandfather's condo for him, which killed my 3PF & Rant time to say nothing of sleep. Luckily I'm a little head on issues right now.

I should be very sad and depressed but I'm really very cavalier at heart when it comes to my own troubles. I just tend to take it as it comes, I don't worry about to much stuff. I'm told I have a rather interesting way of distancing myself for my emotions. Truth is I just realized a long time ago you can't let things beyond your control get to you. Stress when you can act, if you can't do anything then just do something else or you'll eat yourself up from the inside.

Why so heavy today? I just see a lot of my friends letting themselves get depressed and I don't believe in being depressed. You can't help how you feel but you can help how you deal. I choose to deal with it here, this is what I can do and now I'm going to visit my grand father and get on with my life.

Say a few prayers for my grand dad everyone and really don't worry about me I'm not going anywhere. I just feel the need to explain myself sometimes.

Thanks for listening.

-Empire Out