But I saw an interesting viewpoint in the papers… about this guy who says he is an orphan and he is pro-choice. Because "I'd rather be dead than being alive knowing that I was hated in the first place."
And another viewpoint from a guy who had evil parents and had to leave home at age 12… cuz he cant stand it. Parents hated him thats why he just had to get the fuck out. However, he seemingly defied the odds. Age 27, just got a red seal cert in carpentry… and for sure he's making more money than I do. :(
Anyway, Christianity believes that if you are born… the moment you start living in this world in the first place, you got a purpose in life. Because God willed it.
Still have to make sense of that.
And oh. I'd say I'm 70% pro life and 30% pro choice. Cuz I still subconsciously wish I never been born (which is a CHOICE in the first place). The remnants of my suicidal self-harming past. Its still inside me. :(
I'm not really a self-harmer with mental issues who has to regularly take his meds and see a psychiatrist. Used to be like that. But the doc just decided to get me off that shit cuz I'm deemed no longer a threat to myself and others. (at least in medical standards).
The part of me that wishes non-existence or death… is something like my own… inner demon. Its sealed up good. But sometimes, I feel it trying to break free. So there. I have to wrestle with that bitch for the rest of my life. I wont be able to kill it. Just contain it. :)
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