BK Shattered Hate

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kyupol

on July 1, 2006

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RANT OF THE DAY
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To those whove seen some of my posts in the forums… On some instances, I've took shots on North American and Western culture being corrupt, morally bankrupt, "culture of hate"… etc… etc… etc… the usual shit being said by religious fundies (i'm not religious fundie! I just share something like 60% of their beliefs)…


Now I'd take shots at my own culture this time. (Filipino culture) Particularly the very annoying thing about an invisible hierarchy.

Its simple:
Elders –> superior.
Children –> inferior.

Regardless of age… Even if you're 35 years old and a friend of my parents, I'd still have to call you "tito ". Well youre not blood-related to me, asshole. I'd call you "Tito" if you're a blood-related uncle. I'm only 12 years younger than you and I call you "Tito"?

I'd be cool to call you "kuya" (older brother) or "ate" (older sister)… You see this comic… Claudita's age (or how she looked like) is like between 16-18 years old (she could be in her 20s… 25 at the max) while Cedrick is supposedly around 8 or 9. He called her "ate"… thats just a fuckin few years age difference.



At social gatherings, even when I'm 23 years old… The friends of my parents dont see me as an equal ADULT. Like one time I was just talking to this 35 year old dude the same way I'd talk to anybody else… later on I received complaints from some family members that I'm rude and shit. Like wtf!!! Am I not allowed to be on an equal footing with you just because you are 35 years old?!?

I'm not a rude person when talkin to others… otherwise, I'd have alot of enemies by now… I'm cool…

And when I asked someone politely to pass me the food… 2 seconds later, she said a sarcastic "thank you ah!" She wouldnt do that if I was around her age…

Like wtf. I didnt even receive it on my plate and she's expectin me to say thank you right away? Fuck you bitch. I woulda said that if I was really rude but…

So now I understand why I developed social phobia, depression, and other problems when I was younger. Arent you supposed to be treated like an "adult" at age 19? wtf?!? I learned how to be unusually shy and quiet… which really became a pain in the ass… which really made me more prone to getting shit in my face from other people. You know… small guy who is shy is PRONE TO SHIT. Unlike small guy who isnt shy.


Unlike the white and black people I've been to whom I can talk to older dudes in a more relaxed manner. The white and black dudes actually talk to me and see me as more EQUAL to them… than my own race.

No wonder blacks and whites (the westernized ones) become more independent and confident than asians.