ClasherMax

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soupanda

on Feb. 17, 2010

Really, sorry if I sound angst-ridden, but I'm much worse off than I realized, and its hit me. SO, I've got to change things. Hasn't worked for me yet, but I can't just rely on being a creature of habit. That's a scapegoat, a crutch. Its also true, but if I honestly just sit back and don't even bloody try, then I might as well shoot myself in the head and get it over with before I stroke out and have to poop in diapers for the rest of my life. Now, I know that not all stroke survivors are that bad, my grandfather had many strokes before a big one took half his body, and he still didn't stop, but if we're going to objectively look at the process, coma veggie is more likely than just forgetting the word 'apple' in context of the fruit and needing to double check my math with someone, like I need to half the time anyway. Point is…health starts now! No more Scaring Kerie. I don't know if she could stand being with another person as they stroke out. I really don't.