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Craters Edge ch.13.26

Jason Moon

on Jan. 7, 2021

Nothing More - PYRE

The memory, the traces are all gone, all your efforts, all your achievements, all your attainments turning into dust, nothingness, what is the feeling? What happens to you? The idea of God as the potter, the architect of the universe, it makes you feel that life is, after all, important, that there is someone who cares. It has meaning, it has sense, and you are valuable in the eyes of the father. But after a while it got embarassing, the superstition, the myth, the absolutely unfounded idea why does anybody believe that? So you become an atheist, and then you feel terrible after that because you got rid of God. But that means you got rid of yourself, you're just nothing but a machine, and your idea that you're a machine is just a machine too.

So if you think that that's the way things are, you feel hostile to the world. You feel that the world is a neurological trap into which you somehow got caught, trapped. You run from the maternity ward to the crematorium and that's it, that's it. So if you're a smart kid you commit suicide.

The real you, is not a puppet which life pushes around. The real you, the real deep down you, is the whole universe. You cannot confine yourself to what happens inside the skin. Your skin doesn't separate you from the world, it's a bridge. But just as a magnet polarizes it's-self in north and south but it's all one magnet, so experience polarizes itself as "self" and "other" but it's all one.