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[350] Fellowship: Betrayal

Aussie_kid

on June 7, 2007

Forgot the saga end note. Damn.

Well, I've missed two updates this week. I suppose you guys want an explanation, so here it is:

After three and a half years together (The last four months spent apart) I get a call from Amy 'Eternity' Robins after a month of being MIA. We start talking and then I get to the obvious question of where she's been, expecting an answer like 'Too much work' and stuff like that. Nope, as it turns out, she's gotten a social life and kept forgetting to call me.

And that's when she drops the bomb. It's over. I ask why. Then, she launches into this whole speech about how she's realised she never really loved me, I was just a crutch for her self-esteem this entire time. Whenever it got back and she fell, I was always there to catch her. That's all she ever saw me as, a net. The one to catch her when she fell. Then she said I deserved some one who actually cared about me, said it'd be pointless to try and change her mind, then she just hung up without another word

So there I am, standing there with the phone in my hand, trying to make myself dial her number, to clarify it. Then I figure 'screw it', hang up the phone and go see if Jason's up to going out and breaking my vow of alcohol-free adulthood. I get to his place and his father hands me a note. Turns out last week Christi dropped out and she and Jason eloped and have disappeared off the face of the earth.

So I went home and spent the last two days lying on my bed wondering the entire point of it all. Then I realised I deserved better. Better friends, a better girl. I'd done a lot for them, but what had they done for me?

And then today, I got up and took the train over to Amy's place. I managed to catch her just as she was walking out the door. Before a word left her mouth, I told her I didn't care she was getting rid of me, that she was right and I did deserve some one who cared. Then I saw the necklace I had given her for our last anniversary and said I only wanted some one who cared about me to wear that. Without a word she took it off and handed it over. With that I left.

When I got home, I called up my brother and he took away the PS3 she had gotten me and the old guitar she had left behind, saying he'd find good homes for them. Then I made the comic, wrote this rant and now I'm going to spend the weekend gathering up all the photos of us and putting them away in a single box, so that one day I can come across it years from now and remember how I was able to survive high school for the sake of one girl.

Don't bother calling her a bitch or anything like that guys. She's done more good than bad for me over the years. And I don't really feel like wasting my time brooding over her. It was fun while it lasted and I'll always look back on our time together with the good in focus, not the bad.

See you guys on Monday