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Heart go boom

BriannaV

on Feb. 9, 2008

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1. "Ahh, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck pain!!" That morning I was so ripped up, because I didn't know what I was going to do, I didn't know my decision, I wanted to love Dustin but I didn't want to hurt Mike.

2. "Gaa, is it over?" I sent the day with Dustin

3. "For now.." My heart was feeling okay for a while…

4. " I don't know what to do…" I had to break it off with Michael…

5. " I know what I have to do" I knew what I had to do…and I left Michael

6. "Numbness gone away" Throughout this whole thing I was so numb and I had a hard time feeling anything from anyone, but after I broke up with Michael (boyfriend of 7 months) everything I was holding in flooded out.

7. "gaaa" I started to feel okay, I spent the day with my best friend (kim), my pain was starting to go away

8. "almost okay" almost okay….almost feeling good…

9. "BAM" Michael called me that night, well texted me so I called him… He said he wanted to try to work this out and be together. I was being pulled by two different people who want to love me so much. Michael decided for me…he said " I don't wanna have to put you through this…so I'm going to make your decision for you. I want you to be with Dustin and be happy" So I did.

10. "huh? (super glue) everything is okay…Mike and I are just friends and well, we're gonna be doing all the same stuff we use to "watch movies, talk" be friends…
I'm so happy. I'm so okay

11. "This is how it should be." Needs more explanation? :)



I just wish Mike would know I didn't break up with him because of Dustin, but I did because I wanted us both to be even more happy, I wanted someone for him to hold…to be with. And now we both can have that.