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Am I?

KitKatMuffin

on Jan. 19, 2011

Its been a while since I've felt like this, in my public school days I would lie just to fit in, but pretty much felt like shit in the end. I kept lying and lying till I became a person I didn't even know and just acted like one of the girls at school. I got out at 5th grade and felt much better when I was home-schooled by my parents, but now i feel like I did years ago. I haven't lied at all, just been doing stuff thats made me feel like crap, but I do them anyway so I won't disappoint anyone, but its made me pretty much disappointed of my own self, I can't even stand the thought of me with out feeling like a lying bitch, but like i said I haven't lied… I just feel like I've been living a lie and I wanna do something to make me feel like I'm not lying to me or to anyone I know of anymore, but I have no clue what to do… I'm really lost and feel like I screwed my self up really good guys.