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Positive and junk

Aridy

on Oct. 3, 2011

I really find it hard to be positive about things most of the time.  I see the world in this way: good things happen and then to balence out the good that I get, something bad happens.  That bad thing though, it is not just normal level bad, it is life shattering.  I know this is a false way of looking at how the world and life works, but sometimes it just seems that way to my head.  I can't help how the cogs in my brain work.  It is to the point that I am afraid to be happy sometimes, cause I know it will all just shatter soon enough.  But still I try, if not for myself, then for the other people around me who care about me. 
At this point of the trip, we were going to the Belizian cayes for a relief.  To heal our bug bites in the clean and clear, salt water ocean, to be somewhere that was not mud and bugs and work.  It was something to look forward to, besides going home.