MAG ISA

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kyupol

on May 14, 2009

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Rant of the Day
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I dont know but I sort of feel a sense of closure as I got to contact my old classmates from the Philippines again. Especially those from ELEMENTARY SCHOOL!!!

It seems as if yesterday we were 12 year olds running around the playground. Hehe. At least THEM because all I did back then was sit in a corner and be a loner for the most part. Its because I never ever felt like I belong. Even up to now. In fact, I don't think I even belong on this planet.

However instead of developing irrational hatred for this world, for some reason I feel that I have some sort of moral duty on this planet. For some reason I feel the need to be involved in the community. Details of which, I will not disclose because I do not want to brag about my good deeds as it ruins it. Even if you read the bible, notice how Jesus always rebuked the Pharisees? Thats why I'm not into bragging about my good deeds.

Anyway before I stray off the original topic, I've learned that ALOT of the people I went with in elementary school are already married and some have even small children!!! WOW!!! This is amazing! And those who arent married at least have a girlfriend or boyfriend of some sort. And I'm talking about even my "geek" classmates who I am absolutely 100% sure have ZERO game when it comes to women. Maybe its due to social pressures in Filipino culture. Maybe its this hard-to-explain attraction on a spiritual level that is responsible for that.

Those "how-to-pickup-women" and psychology books only go into the physical aspect of male-female attraction.

And no I'm not jealous of any of my classmates or of you or of anyone else just because you got some shoulder to lean on. Why should I be jealous if its all because you've got a different set of experiences and lessons you need to learn as you exist in this reality? Its like being jealous of you because you happen to have a different test paper!!!

I strongly feel that my calling in this life would require me to be single. And I strongly feel that my next life will not be on this planet.

Feel free to dismiss this rant as ramblings of another nutjob. Up to you. :)

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@Senretsu - sorry but I heavily disagree with Satanism.

@JustNoPoint - Claudita won't kill herself. dont worry. :)

@krisikas, patoborracho, Walrus, croxtonhas, Jonko, Peipei, ghostrunner, Warpedwenger - thanks for commenting.

@worstcase - oops. sorry.

@magickmaker - mankind can choose between the dark side or the good side of the force.

@LanceDanger - ironically, I think I did a bad job on that page.