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kyupol

on Nov. 16, 2010

***ANNOUNCEMENT***
To everyone who wrote about being unable to send me their fanart because of the drunkduck problems, I am giving you until DECEMBER 4, 2010 to hand in your fanart. The best one will get leaderbord advertising for the month of December and the first few days of January. But regardless, your artwork or fanfic will be shown together with a link to your website / comic / blog / etc.
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RANT OF THE DAY

Still… soul… searching. Been undergoing alot of mental stress lately. Its the kind that can get you to shed a bucket of tears… then stop as if everything is normal. Then later on when something triggers the memory of the series of events that caused you stress, the tears start flowing out again. Then it becomes difficult to function. That I just have to feign a headache to give an excuse to cover my eyes whenever it happens and there's a large group of people and I dont wanna be seen crying.

Yeah I mentioned somewhere that I know techniques to instantly manipulate your emotions. But still, in spite of that, it is difficult. When people see you feign a headache at least 3 times in an hour and when they go "you ok" and you can look at em and smile and say "yeah i'm fine" (the tears stop just as someone closes in and tries to look you in the eye)… what do you think they'd be thinking?

Knowing psychology, I know that there is a risk for me to develop multiple personality disorder. Knowing spirituality, I know there is a risk for me to attract negative entities to possess me. I've caught myself blanking out at least a couple times. Then a rush of information gets flooded into my head. Then when I regain consciousness, I feel "healed up" but forget the rush of information.

Maybe this comic might go on hiatus any moment? I dunno. But historically, when I talked about going on hiatus, it always turned out to be a "false alarm" or april fools joke (I remember one time I joked about finally quitting doing webcomics altogether and I lost maybe 20-30% of my readers!!! Even though it was on APRIL FOOLS!!! lol!!!). In this case though, I honestly do not know. I KNOW that there is this part of me that absolutely refuses to give up and is telling me "YOU GONNA LET THAT SHIT GET IN YOUR WAY AND GET YOU TO STOP DOING WHAT YOU LOVE?!? STOP BEING SUCH A PUSSY!!! GET UP!!! FIGHT!!!

Maybe I'm going insane. Maybe that's my alter personality right there. Maybe I've already been demon possessed. lol (just trying to make a joke about my situation…)

Sorry guys, just had to vent that out. This only scratches the surface. Something's been really bothering the hell outta me and its not cute and funny.
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@croxtonhas, mmm bacon0 - thanks for commenting.

@Asbin - yeah you have a point. I shoulda drawn that page differently. Thanks for the crit. Much appreciated.

@Walrus - cant wait to see your fanart!

@ghostrunner - glad that the improvements are coming along. I spent a little more time than usual on that page. Glad you noticed it.

@SoniaCBU - checked that video. It could possibly be faked. In those kinds of scenarios, eyewitness testimony is more reliable than video.

Anyway, this whole reincarnation thing from what I've researched… is about reincarnating into another life (gender, country, social status… even in another planet or dimension as part of another civilization… is all unknown) in where one needs to learn certain "lessons" before advancing to the next "level" as far as spiritual evolution is concerned. As to determining factors as to what kind of next life that person will experience… I honestly do not know. Maybe there is a "God" out there who created this whole "program".

Maybe a bunch of conditions must be fulfilled according to the program written by "God"? Because you see, if you know computer programming (I have a bit of background in it), there's a thing called "if-else statements".
http://www.w3schools.com/js/js_if_else.asp