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MT Issue 30: page 17

Author_Ninja

on Sept. 19, 2009

Been getting rather depressed again lately. It started yesterday, and hasn't really gotten better.

Been taking stock in my life.I am not where I wanted to be three, four years ago. I made plans, and none of them came to pass. Even now the one thing I want to do it my life is unattainable unless I meet very specific requirements and, frankly I just plain don't see any of it happening.

My goal is to someday move and life in japan, I don't know how long, maybe not forever, but, i dunno, we'll see. But, I can't get a work visa. So, I don't know, maybe it's possible I could become an artist and be able to earn money anywhere I went and not NEED a job in japan, but there's still other factors that prevent me from living there. I'm not a criminal or really do anything to have me barred from the country, so I COULD live there legally (I think). But, let's face it, if I won the lotto (Or found a nice Japanese family to board with) , I would sell all my possessions and be on the first available flight to Japan TONIGHT.

So, what do I have to look forward to? A lonely, depressing life as a CVS shift manager the rest of my life, with maybe the possibility to raise myself up to be a full manager? Or do I shoot for the stars and start working from here on out to raising myself to a point where I can move to Japan?

Well, I'm definitely going to give Japan the best shot I can. But god help me it's gonna be a rough road. I'd love to be able to get there before I'm too old to enjoy the Japanese women.

Yeah, you heard me.