My Zombie Life

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Chapter 2 - page 26

heigei

on May 2, 2010

HEY GUYS, uh, I'm sorry? I just realized that I have been keeping the peaople at smackjeeves posted about wtf is happening, but not the people who might be reading it here :X so um. yeah.

I'M AS SURPRISED AS YOU ARE.
SERIOUSLY.

yes. an update. a real one. with panels and speech bubbles and edith! freaking what!
the thing is that this page has been lying in my room unfinished ever since I stopped drawing completely two months ago (or how long time it have been since my last update). and uh, this is actually version 2 of this page. I just got stuck on it. and I left it fully sketched but stopped inking halfway down the last panel. then I realized what utter crap that panel was. and my self doubt got the better of me and I just gave up. what I have been waiting for these past weeks is for me to get over myself and be able to upload it without feeling bad about the page. NOW I'm thinking "well what does one crappy page matter?" I can always redraw it.
there are a lot of things that bug me about this page. the freaking stupid angle and the complete failure of making any sense out of it in the fourth panel, as an example.
what I hate most with this page is that last panel though. because it just turned out all wrong.her anatomy and the angle of her body and ugh. that's why I went bat shit crazy with the colours.
BUT YEAH. I'M NOT GONNA BURY MYSELF INTO THAT MESS.
THIS IS AN UPDATE.

though, I have to warn you, that this does not mean that I will start updating on a regular basis. this is a page that more or less have been finished for months now. I don't know if I'm gonna be able to start drawing like I did before just yet.
though, I have the three next pages sketched down roughly on paper. I did that last night when I couldn't sleep. when finally finishing this page I got snapshots of how I wanted the next pages to look like, and not knowing how my creativity or motivation will act I decided to sacrifice my sleep to get them down on paper before I lost track of them forever. so there is hope! hahaha.

I have missed you all like crazy. since I haven't been drawing at all I have subconsciously been avoiding all places I used to spend all my time at. like smackjeeves and dA. and that led to me not keeping contact with people I really really like. I hope that I can come back in though. because I miss you. ffddfdffd.

and uh, the past month has been emotional hell for me on so many levels. and on top of that school has been a major stress factor. my final exams starts on tuesday and go on to the 18th of may. then I end school, and IB.
I have applied for something called Folkhögskolan, roughly translated into Folk High School. Though it's _not really_ high school. It's a middle ground between High School and University. it might be called community college in english? not sure. but it's a place where you can take classes in subjects you might have failed in high school and that you need for applying to university. it's for one year. and I've applied to study art there for a year. so that I can apply for Illustration at Edinburgh College of Art.
and then I've applied for like at least twenty different jobs for the summer. and then I have my senior prom the 27th of may. and then I graduate the 11th of june. so it's A LOT going on in my life right now.
but I'm hoping that I will be able to draw again very soon. I'm going to try whenever I have time.
because no way I'm giving up on this now.

lol yeah this was a LONG authors comment. but…yeah. just wanted to keep you posted. or something.