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GreenKrog

on Jan. 12, 2014

Yup. Going back to anger. Anger is much, much easier to deal with than the other steps, denial and bargaining. It makes sense, when you are so full of rage.
Panel 5 - those are air quotes. Air quotes are really hard to do without motion.
Panel 6 —
There is a very interesting book I was reading over Christmas. It is called "Whipping Girl", a trans* woman's view on the scapegoating of femininity. In it is a specific chapter, where she notes that, even though she eventually came to know who she was, there was always a part of her that wanted to be pushed down, control taken from her, and be destroyed. Not in a sexual way, in a.. sub-human way. To be hurt.
The worst part about that is, I know the feeling exactly. Some days, when I am walking home, I wish someone would just attack me. Like I deserve to be hurt just for existing. That I could dare want to be me, when I could have been something else. Something "better".
Maybe it's different for trans*men, because they inherently get to move into a stronger position. But for some of the trans*women that I have spoken to, far too many of them that I've spoken to, they have felt like I have. Like they had depreciated value. Like they were sub-human for just wanting to exist.
Toni feels that way in panel 6.