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- Surprise?
- Sophie's Present
- Welcome Home 2
- Welcome Home
- Thursday Begins
- Dad's Christmas Plans
- Bill's Definitive
- Taxi Service
- Juicy Brains
- Parents Meet the Boys
- Post-Meet Respect
- Standing Up to Vic
- Good Sister
- In Lexi's Care
- Jamie vs Bill
- Complications
- Zen
- Bathroom
- Fugue
- Tis the Season - Dethtapus Aftershow
- Dethtapus Bill
- Dethtapus Singing
- WE ARE DETHTAPUS
- Sophie and The Boon
- Christmas Locations
- Stop Apologizing
- Team Captain Vic
- Elsewhere, Fag
- Dan and Drinking
- Refugee
- Beaten
- Raining Hell
- Drunken Non-Swimming
- Tutoring Vic
- Home Alone/Glamour (P2)
- Home Alone/Glamour (P1)
- Who is the Real Dark Mistress?
- Sophie, Surprise!
- Andrea on Call
- Stay Here
- Ninjas
- Post-Swim Escape
- Another Meet
- Mom's Verdict
- Not Right
- Outbursts
- Signs of Worry
- Tutoring Nathan
- After Swimming
- Who She Sees
- First Date
- Late Night Calls
- Brothers
- Saving Tony
- Dad and Julie
- Dammit Bill!
- Explain, NOW
- Goth Meets Dad
- Moving Home
- Coat Off His Back
- Bipolar Much
- A Coatless Andrea
- Promise
- Resolutions
- Tacos and.. Sophie?
- Finally All Right
- Haunted Night
- Wildflowers
- Jamie's Dorm
- Nameless Hate
- Scary Truth 2/2
- Scary Truth 1/2
- Hurting
- Tutoring Roy
- He Thought...?!
- No Boys
- Mitchies!
- Binary Choices 2/2
- Binary Choices 1/2
- Late Night Reassurances
- The Evening Concludes
- Pizza by Candelight
- Chatting with Mitch
- Lockpicks
- Through the Door?
- It Didn't work
- Safely Home
- Confusion
- After the Set
- The Bar
- Goth Shopping
- Second Date
- Letting Down Andrea
- The Molerat
- Confessing to Sophie 2/2
- Confessing to Sophie 1/2
- Tutoring Jamie
- Wednesday Checkup
- The Goth Look
- The Engothening - Buying Goth
- Tuesday Therapy
- Lessons in Esteem
- She said WHAT?
- Vacation
- Home Late
- Tutoring Andrea
- Guy-ish? Time
- Wrath of Joanie
- Raise a Glass
- Sophie's Freakout
- Stupid Swimming
- Sophie and the Meet
- Clear as Mud
- Floating
- Direction
- Journey
- Mongoose
- Tutoring Jared 2/2
- Tutoring Jared 1/2
- Shattered Shoulder
- Shattered Heart
- Advantage
- Spreadsheeting
- Sisyphus
- Fair Trade 2/2
Thoughts Unfold - Fair Trade 1/2
- Moving Forward
- Overpower Nightmare
- Hospital Nightmare
- Hollow Dream
- Nightmare Compilation
- I Don't Want to Talk About it!
- Monday Morning
- Thoughts With Bill
- Going Home
- Nightmare Returns
- Blood Debt
- Christmas Shopping
- Everybody Knows!
- Bill Knows!
- Shopping Money
- Saturday Morning
- Moonlight Stroll
- Truth
- Panic Attack
- Drugged Confessions
- Drug 'im!
- Did I Kill Him?
- Sophie Arrives
- Chatting With Himself
- You Broke Him
- Friday Shower
- Waking up Friday
Picking Up the Peices - Alarmist Hospital
- Dinner Time!
- Bedroom 2
- Bedroom 1
- New Home
- To The Car
- Aftermath
- Brutality
- Punishment
- Results
- Peace
- The Act
- Friends Visit, 2
- Dr Bernt, Mr
- Sparks of Hope
- Uniform Horror
- Dr Bernt, 2
- Dr Bernt, 1
- Brain Doc
- Friends Visit
- Fit As a Useless Fiddle
- Angel
- Coma 2
- Coma
- Angels
- Freedom of the Stars
- Gifts Ungiven
- Grandmaster
- Another Not-Date
- Dr Bernt Rejected
- Kick First
- Haircut
- Tacos and Sophie
- Weekend
- Skippin School
- Bright Future
- Shattered Mirrors
A new Chapter - Thanksgiving Monday
- Thanksgiving sunday
- Swim Meet 2
- Teachers and Sleep
- Busy Thursday
- The Tuesday After
- The Other Dr Bernt
- Dr Bernt
- Saturday, Oct 3
- Vic Day
- Ron Day
- Sophie Day
- Intake Forms
- Typical Monday
- It Gets Worse
- Not A Date
- Superglue Sunday
- Monthly Checkin
- Unacceptable Sleep
- Go to Bed, Dammit
- Principal
- Big Hero
- Sunday Messages
- Instead Of
- Storming Out
- Interrogation
- Meet the Parents
- Slap!
Anger Boils - Victory
- The Big Meet
- Guy Time
- Monday Pizza
- Monday Practice, Again
- Downhill
- Late Nights, Late Mornings
- Godless Anger
- Anger And Loneliness
- Church Four
- Church One
- Too Much
- A Twist!
- Shower Scene
- Silk Pyjamas
- Off Your Hands
- Friday Practice
- No Sleep, P2
- No Sleep, P1
- Hit The Showers
- Monday Practice
- Oh, Right
- Dapper Gent
- Sleeping In
Anger Subsiding - Monologue
- Nightmares
- Accusations
- Later, Mitch
- Day Out
- Friend Pickup
- Post Race Pizza
- Post Race Goodbye
- The Race
- Parking Lot Ambush
- Parking Lot Discussions
- Uniform Rage
- Hanging Up
- Post-Fight Goodbye
- Post-Fight Run
- Fight!
- Kyle, Round 2
- Walk to The Racks
- Scheduling
- Uniformity
- Orientation
- One Day Left
- Unwelcome Sunrise
- Bike Exchange
- Text, P2
Stage 2, Anger - Man Up
- Texts, P1
- Running Home
- Stages
- What Now?
- No Apologies
- Dream Revelations
- Convincing Argument
- Headdesk
- Spouting Crazy
- Doorbells
- The Door To
- Revelations Begin - Awkward Tree
- The Text Message
- Changing Room
- Friends Arrive
- Enter: Lexi
- Friday Morning
- Bill, Now With Burger
- The Prodigal Brother Returns
- August 19
- Tuesday Night
- Sleep Over
- Ditching
- Waking at Night
- Cleaning Up
- Car Home
- Talking
- Teachers
- Keep Breathing
- Kyle
- First Ride
Two Weeks - Post-Birthday Surprise
- Sunday Night
- Cooking? Nope!
- Home Again
- Dead Tire
- Goodbye For Now
- Food Court Goodness
- A Helping Hand
- To The Mall!
- Breakfast Sammich
- First Sleep
- Where is Mom?
- Room Unpacked
- Slip 'n' Fall
- Unpacking The Truck
- Thoughts
- This is It
- Packing
Moving Weekend - News
- Signs - Jeans
- Signs - Gymnastics
- Signs - School Call-in
- Signs - Barbie
- Signs - Dress
- They Came Back
- Trigger Warning
- Rain Shoutout
It Begins..? - VE shoutout
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Last
First
Prev
- Surprise?
- Sophie's Present
- Welcome Home 2
- Welcome Home
- Thursday Begins
- Dad's Christmas Plans
- Bill's Definitive
- Taxi Service
- Juicy Brains
- Parents Meet the Boys
- Post-Meet Respect
- Standing Up to Vic
- Good Sister
- In Lexi's Care
- Jamie vs Bill
- Complications
- Zen
- Bathroom
- Fugue
- Tis the Season - Dethtapus Aftershow
- Dethtapus Bill
- Dethtapus Singing
- WE ARE DETHTAPUS
- Sophie and The Boon
- Christmas Locations
- Stop Apologizing
- Team Captain Vic
- Elsewhere, Fag
- Dan and Drinking
- Refugee
- Beaten
- Raining Hell
- Drunken Non-Swimming
- Tutoring Vic
- Home Alone/Glamour (P2)
- Home Alone/Glamour (P1)
- Who is the Real Dark Mistress?
- Sophie, Surprise!
- Andrea on Call
- Stay Here
- Ninjas
- Post-Swim Escape
- Another Meet
- Mom's Verdict
- Not Right
- Outbursts
- Signs of Worry
- Tutoring Nathan
- After Swimming
- Who She Sees
- First Date
- Late Night Calls
- Brothers
- Saving Tony
- Dad and Julie
- Dammit Bill!
- Explain, NOW
- Goth Meets Dad
- Moving Home
- Coat Off His Back
- Bipolar Much
- A Coatless Andrea
- Promise
- Resolutions
- Tacos and.. Sophie?
- Finally All Right
- Haunted Night
- Wildflowers
- Jamie's Dorm
- Nameless Hate
- Scary Truth 2/2
- Scary Truth 1/2
- Hurting
- Tutoring Roy
- He Thought...?!
- No Boys
- Mitchies!
- Binary Choices 2/2
- Binary Choices 1/2
- Late Night Reassurances
- The Evening Concludes
- Pizza by Candelight
- Chatting with Mitch
- Lockpicks
- Through the Door?
- It Didn't work
- Safely Home
- Confusion
- After the Set
- The Bar
- Goth Shopping
- Second Date
- Letting Down Andrea
- The Molerat
- Confessing to Sophie 2/2
- Confessing to Sophie 1/2
- Tutoring Jamie
- Wednesday Checkup
- The Goth Look
- The Engothening - Buying Goth
- Tuesday Therapy
- Lessons in Esteem
- She said WHAT?
- Vacation
- Home Late
- Tutoring Andrea
- Guy-ish? Time
- Wrath of Joanie
- Raise a Glass
- Sophie's Freakout
- Stupid Swimming
- Sophie and the Meet
- Clear as Mud
- Floating
- Direction
- Journey
- Mongoose
- Tutoring Jared 2/2
- Tutoring Jared 1/2
- Shattered Shoulder
- Shattered Heart
- Advantage
- Spreadsheeting
- Sisyphus
- Fair Trade 2/2
Thoughts Unfold - Fair Trade 1/2
- Moving Forward
- Overpower Nightmare
- Hospital Nightmare
- Hollow Dream
- Nightmare Compilation
- I Don't Want to Talk About it!
- Monday Morning
- Thoughts With Bill
- Going Home
- Nightmare Returns
- Blood Debt
- Christmas Shopping
- Everybody Knows!
- Bill Knows!
- Shopping Money
- Saturday Morning
- Moonlight Stroll
- Truth
- Panic Attack
- Drugged Confessions
- Drug 'im!
- Did I Kill Him?
- Sophie Arrives
- Chatting With Himself
- You Broke Him
- Friday Shower
- Waking up Friday
Picking Up the Peices - Alarmist Hospital
- Dinner Time!
- Bedroom 2
- Bedroom 1
- New Home
- To The Car
- Aftermath
- Brutality
- Punishment
- Results
- Peace
- The Act
- Friends Visit, 2
- Dr Bernt, Mr
- Sparks of Hope
- Uniform Horror
- Dr Bernt, 2
- Dr Bernt, 1
- Brain Doc
- Friends Visit
- Fit As a Useless Fiddle
- Angel
- Coma 2
- Coma
- Angels
- Freedom of the Stars
- Gifts Ungiven
- Grandmaster
- Another Not-Date
- Dr Bernt Rejected
- Kick First
- Haircut
- Tacos and Sophie
- Weekend
- Skippin School
- Bright Future
- Shattered Mirrors
A new Chapter - Thanksgiving Monday
- Thanksgiving sunday
- Swim Meet 2
- Teachers and Sleep
- Busy Thursday
- The Tuesday After
- The Other Dr Bernt
- Dr Bernt
- Saturday, Oct 3
- Vic Day
- Ron Day
- Sophie Day
- Intake Forms
- Typical Monday
- It Gets Worse
- Not A Date
- Superglue Sunday
- Monthly Checkin
- Unacceptable Sleep
- Go to Bed, Dammit
- Principal
- Big Hero
- Sunday Messages
- Instead Of
- Storming Out
- Interrogation
- Meet the Parents
- Slap!
Anger Boils - Victory
- The Big Meet
- Guy Time
- Monday Pizza
- Monday Practice, Again
- Downhill
- Late Nights, Late Mornings
- Godless Anger
- Anger And Loneliness
- Church Four
- Church One
- Too Much
- A Twist!
- Shower Scene
- Silk Pyjamas
- Off Your Hands
- Friday Practice
- No Sleep, P2
- No Sleep, P1
- Hit The Showers
- Monday Practice
- Oh, Right
- Dapper Gent
- Sleeping In
Anger Subsiding - Monologue
- Nightmares
- Accusations
- Later, Mitch
- Day Out
- Friend Pickup
- Post Race Pizza
- Post Race Goodbye
- The Race
- Parking Lot Ambush
- Parking Lot Discussions
- Uniform Rage
- Hanging Up
- Post-Fight Goodbye
- Post-Fight Run
- Fight!
- Kyle, Round 2
- Walk to The Racks
- Scheduling
- Uniformity
- Orientation
- One Day Left
- Unwelcome Sunrise
- Bike Exchange
- Text, P2
Stage 2, Anger - Man Up
- Texts, P1
- Running Home
- Stages
- What Now?
- No Apologies
- Dream Revelations
- Convincing Argument
- Headdesk
- Spouting Crazy
- Doorbells
- The Door To
- Revelations Begin - Awkward Tree
- The Text Message
- Changing Room
- Friends Arrive
- Enter: Lexi
- Friday Morning
- Bill, Now With Burger
- The Prodigal Brother Returns
- August 19
- Tuesday Night
- Sleep Over
- Ditching
- Waking at Night
- Cleaning Up
- Car Home
- Talking
- Teachers
- Keep Breathing
- Kyle
- First Ride
Two Weeks - Post-Birthday Surprise
- Sunday Night
- Cooking? Nope!
- Home Again
- Dead Tire
- Goodbye For Now
- Food Court Goodness
- A Helping Hand
- To The Mall!
- Breakfast Sammich
- First Sleep
- Where is Mom?
- Room Unpacked
- Slip 'n' Fall
- Unpacking The Truck
- Thoughts
- This is It
- Packing
Moving Weekend - News
- Signs - Jeans
- Signs - Gymnastics
- Signs - School Call-in
- Signs - Barbie
- Signs - Dress
- They Came Back
- Trigger Warning
- Rain Shoutout
It Begins..? - VE shoutout
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Author notes
I've only had one panic attack that I can recall. Happened at 3 AM on a Saturday. Deeply not cool. No reason, even, just, total panic, hid in a corner, terror.
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