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A life so changed...

Nigellashade

on July 25, 2008

Dearest DD.. It's Nigellashade…

My heart is heavy right now, after all that happened.. all that was done..
I don't come here with good news..

(The reson why it's just a symbol of flowers..cause my step-father ~Arnold~.. he always wanted to give flowers to us, when he was himself).. This isn't much but it's what i can for now for my emotions..

My step-father… Passed away.. He's gone..

I don't want others to say that it might be the best way..
Cause I knew the man he was, (before he got sick).
Anyone who suffers being manic bi-polar will understand this.
They aren't in control with their lives, and he did try..

It angers me how the system let my family down, how they treated Us… Exspecialy him.
Cause they perposly hurt my mother, they made sure she had no power to stop anything.

Because of this, now he's gone…
And it wasn't really by his own hand, it was a accident with his motorcycle.

I did love him, even though his illness caused our family grief.
We were the only ones, who didn't really close our door..
It did esculate, and it didn't turn out well..

I feel pained no one will ever know…that he was a good man.
And he did at some point made my mother happy..
But after he got sick, that's when we lost him.

My heart is aching to much….I wish I had better news..
But I don't know what to do anymore.. ;__;

Thank you…. all of you for being supportive.. I wish it didn't end this way..;____;

To all of you with Love…

Marisa..