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Heh. That's funny, because all that stuff is pretty much all my brother does, and he kept complaining that Indiana wasn't any good for it… He lived in this awful little town called "North Vernon" that we called "the Dirty Vern". Mostly I think it was the lack of mountains, though. We're hillbilly folk, truth be told. ;)

He does have a hilarious story about the first time he killed a deer up there, and didn't have anywhere to leave the carcass (they used to dump 'em deep in the woods where they knew scavengers would clean the bones, but apparently there weren't any woods there). So it ended up in a 7-11 dumpster.

we had land that had belonged to our family since before my grandpa (not sure how long before him, just that he bought it from his uncle). and across the street from our cornfield, we had woods, in which we cleared out a section and put basically a dirt bike track. and a bunch of paths that crissed and crossed in the woods, barely big enough for trucks.

and in the south central part of indiana, were a ton of woods and hills. not quite mountains but very steep terrain.

and when we hunted we kept the deer, and ate it. or are you saying after you got all the meat and everything?

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I just ordered like, $8 worth of badges. And now I feel guilty, because it's totally a silly and unnecessary purchase.
It's not nice when you're living off limited funds :(
I used to do that in between freelance graphic design jobs. But now I still don't spend much even though money isn't a problem. I'm just used to saving.

Splurging occasionally is always good though! Makes you happier about saving and having making do, so don't feel guilty Hyena.

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and when we hunted we kept the deer, and ate it. or are you saying after you got all the meat and everything?
No, this was after it was gutted and cleaned. Just the stripped carcass went in the dumpster. The trash guys, understandably, won't pick up that kind of thing; you have to call the folks what pick up the roadkill, I think.

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so i've been sleeping for close to almost 24 hrs…
i finally caught up with only sleeping for 4 hrs for 7 days.

it took a narcotic to finally knock me out.
stupid job and insomnia.

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So, today would've been a great day.
Until my brother started acting like a total ass.
And I realize how terrible the story to my comic is, because it really doesn't make sense. And I just, ugh. So I guess I'm re-starting. Yet again.

But luckily, I'm keeping most of the character designs, and the story is the same, except, I'm not starting off the same way.

If I'm lucky, I can maybe draw the first page tonight? Who knows.

By that, I mean, I pretty much already have an idea in mind.

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welcome to the club of restarting comics.

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Ok, I'm having a panic attack, haha.

I'm sitting here with this 452 page script (and it's 476 pages if you include the cover/title page and all pages that'll go between chapters) and I'm getting scared that I won't be able to draw it… it's probably partly due to the reason that there's lots of "alien" elements in it, that is things I never really drew before, things I'll need reference for. As a result, I'm stuck doing/redoing character designs.

Maybe I should just focus on doing everything needed for chapter 1 first and then design the rest, I don't know.

Or, in other words… I think I have a good script, but can I draw it well enough?

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the conflict between the old and the new patterns.

Its still happening to me.

But I'm taking it calmly for some reason.

Its no longer making me insane and wanna kill myself like a few years ago.

I'm like. Yeah its happening. But… pfft. who cares.

Who cares.

I don't care anymore what anybody thinks about me.

If I can take rejection from family members, what more with other people. I just let it fly over my head. And go yeah so what. I don't give a shit.

I've been told.

Its only at first when the awakening is a painful process.

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i just remember a dream i had when i was sleeping 2day. britney spears told me she was having my baby. then i kept thinking i never did it with britney, and then i suddenly remember doing it with her in some hotel by the beach. then she had twins, but i wanted to get a paternity test.

i hate britney spears. damn you hydrocodone!
why couldn't it be michelle trachenberg.

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Aw, I never have celebrity sex dreams. Just the regular creeps I know in real life, or those weird generic dream people.

God, my hand is frickin' killin' me. I haven't even drawn that much today, and I've been taking breaks like I'm supposed to. It's not my fingers this time, though; it's my metacarpals. Grrr. I really want to get all the linework for this page done before I go to bed, but I'd rather not cripple myself doin' so.

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lol
u have creep dreams?
Both creepy and inhabited by creeps. ;)

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welcome to the club of restarting comics.

I've been in that club for over a year now.

This would be the 7th time I've re-made this comic.
8 if you count the one that technically wasn't Ryu's Krew, but involved Ryu.

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Been having a bit too much to drink tonight

Aw, I never have celebrity sex dreams. Just the regular creeps I know in real life, or those weird generic dream people.

I wouldnt mind being a creep in your dreams, babydoll

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Been having a bit too much to drink tonight

i have not been drinking at all. since february. kinda wanted to tonight, but it was only the new guys getting together. plus is was my new years resolution to not drink as much as i did last year. also, with crappy runtimes like the one on friday, i really don't deserve to have myself a good time. but at the same time, i'm getting cabin fever, and just wanna go out.

most people say you have to believe in yourself to get better at something. i dont think that's true. you have to consider whatever you're doing as the most vile piece of shite out there. from there you say, this has to be better. and then you improve, knowing every time you improve, is still a piece of crap.

GET ME OUT OF HERE.

Post. Script.

i hate when i check the weather channel slightly after midnight. cause i'm heading to bed, so i'm like "tomorrows weather" and then it gives me litteraly monday's weather. and i'm like that's not bad for a 4 mile run. then i see that it's mondays weather. and i check sunday and i'm like "ffffffffffuuuuuuuu"

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Dad won 300$ off that horse race today lol! 12$ ticket on 4-7-2, our friends got 600$ because they accidentally bought two tickets for 4-7-2 haha what luck, or rather googling who people said to bet on.

Had a female family reunion today :) Grandma, mom, aunt, me and my cousin nicole (+ grandpa lol) It was really nice i have a lot in common with my cousin, i regret not really talking to her in colorado. We're going to go see UP tomorrow, drive on a racetrack thingie, and maybe lunch.

Welp time to enjoy the insanely fast wireless here.

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Today is the last day of my 2-week vacation. :[ Appropriately it has been cold and rainy yesterday and today. I am really wishing I took a 3-week holiday instead of 2, because I am mentally just NOT ready to go back yet. I am going to have to positive-think my way through work until I can force myself back into a work groove. If I'd had just one more week I would have hit the "I miss work and WANT to go back" point… but right now I'm still at "I'm enjoying not working and I'm not bored yet" point. Blah.

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Aw, I never have celebrity sex dreams. Just the regular creeps I know in real life, or those weird generic dream people.
I wouldnt mind being a creep in your dreams, babydoll
Stranger things have happened.
Dad won 300$ off that horse race today lol! 12$ ticket on 4-7-2, our friends got 600$ because they accidentally bought two tickets for 4-7-2 haha what luck, or rather googling who people said to bet on.
OMG I love horse racing. Or rather, I love bettin' on horse racing. We ain't got it in North Carolina, though. >:( Another plus to moving back to New Orleans- I'll be there for opening day! (Well, provided that the guilt from skippin' Thanksgiving this year doesn't compel me back to the mountains.)

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Today is the last day of my 2-week vacation.
Awwww… Holidays are so cool. That's a shame. -_-

Weee, I just saw the most beautiful contrail over my house, stretching from one end of the sky to the other. It was a lovely sight. :)

And none of that "chem-trail" from anyone (kyu I'm, lookin' at you man…), or I'll gut ya. :gem:
We don't get that here often at all ever… not that many aeroplanes fly over and the weather conditions aren't right usually anyway.

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I think when I see my doctor tomorrow I'm gonna push for her to prescribe me Aderol. This lack of concentration thing is pretty much ruining my life. Seriously- I can't even finish a newspaper article. I've been listening to audiobooks while I'm working on my comic, which seems to help me stay put and keep working for at least an hour or so at a time, but really that ain't good enough.

The only other recourse I can think of is to quit my meds altogether. But it's not like I'm not having mood swings despite the meds. They just cycle more rapidly, and tend to be less extreme. Quitting would probably mean a return of the depressive episodes and the high-gear, somewhat self destructive manic bouts. But I'd take that over not having the periods where I feel like a million bucks, can work tirelessly, don't need to sleep or food, have tons of brilliant ideas that I can actually manifest, feel like going out or being social more than once a year… And sure, that's coupled with impulsive and often really poor decisions and behavior. But that's the only time I can focus, and have any self-confidence or like myself, and am happy, and I really don't want to live without that. That's what I think of as "myself", even if it's just a chemical high caused by my messed-up brain. And I haven't been "myself" for a year, save about a month or so.

I hate this crap. I really wonder what it's like to be "normal". It gets worse as I get older, too. By the time I'm 40 I'm afraid that I'll be completely non-functional. Stupid mental illness.

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I've been listening to audiobooks while I'm working on my comic, which seems to help me stay put and keep working for at least an hour or so at a time, but really that ain't good enough.
Hahahaha! I have that… It's the main reason I don't get my comic done. It takes such a fine balance to distractions/mind-focus to get me to work. The listen again stuff o the BBC website helps, but only if there's a good drama or ply to listen to.
When I'm in the office it's usualy a bit easier because the graphic design jobs are short and require a different sort of thinking to more creative stuff… But at the moment I'm mainly doing web design (all in notepad), and that sort of coding for me requires exactly the same creative thinking as artwork so it's torture for me to stay focused… I have to keep getting up and making cups of tea and doing other stuff… It's damn hard!

As for pills, I find I can concentrate and stick with creative work longer if I'm on something with pseudoephedrine in it, such as cold and flu pills. But I'd never take those for art… I have to have something wrong with my sinus first. Somehow I can't think it'd be a good thing for me to become reliant on pills for my work anyway.
-That's just in my case mind you. I don't have other problems like Manic Depression or anything else to deal with, which would obviously make things much harder and definitely require some form of chemical compensation.

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This "design characters before you try to draw them" approach is driving me crazy, haha. I guess I got three ready so far… + one more and a couple of more generic faces and I could start drawing chapter 1.

I still need about 20 more designs, not counting the shapeshifters…

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This "design characters before you try to draw them" approach is driving me crazy, haha. I guess I got three ready so far… + one more and a couple of more generic faces and I could start drawing chapter 1.

I still need about 20 more designs, not counting the shapeshifters…

I hate designing too. I'm one of the kinds of people that want to just get into the drawing first XD
I'm still designing weapons for the bad guys for the opening scene in my comic.

I'm changing some stuff around, and basically making the comic better. So I wouldn't necessarily say I'm starting over. But this is the 7th or 8th time already. XD

It's gonna be a lot better though.
I'm also going to start drawing on cardstock, which a few people have recommended to me (on here, actually).

Anybody here use it? Is it really like bristol?
I bet it's a step-up from copy paper.
I just hope that it takes copics well.

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Aw, I never have celebrity sex dreams. Just the regular creeps I know in real life, or those weird generic dream people.
I wouldnt mind being a creep in your dreams, babydoll
Stranger things have happened.

Great! Just commit this image to memory, it shall serve as my in-dream avatar.



Let the good times roll! Woo!

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That wouldn't be strange, just sad Farce… -_-
Who is that actor anyway?

I love sex dreams. The people are rarely ever celebs, never generic, and rarely anyone I know. They're usually really interesting people that my subconscious just comes up with like this lovely African Brazilian woman last night… :)

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