Thread "Rant or Vent here" in forum "Comic Talk and General Discussion *"

Posted at 9:02AM, Feb. 26, 2008

I feel like all of my artistic motivation has been sucked out of my ear lately. A few things have happened in my life in the last couple of months that reminded me of stuff that I was trying really hard to forget, and it's made me really depressed. (I can't really get into specifics here, because there is an off-chance that the parties involved will read this, and I don't want to create even more drama.)

Depression seems to work for some artists, but it tends to just knock me out completely, and I can't seem to get anything done, which makes me even more frustrated and less likely to work…which puts me farther behind and I get more depressed because I don't have anything done. I've tried everything I can think of to snap myself out of this, but nothing seems to be working this time.

Not that I expect rambling about it on an internet forum will help either, but I suppose it's worth a shot.

There must be a virus going around to webcomic artists. I have this as well. So does OzoneOcean and Skullbie.

I hate it!!! I'm like 8 pages away from finishing this issue and can actually take a break but I just don't feel like it. Getting more annoyed and depressed combined with recent real life issues as well. Not only that but it's adding to my sense of self doubt.
For some reason I am thinking I am not good enough more and more. That I am not improving enough. Agh, got to get to drawing!

Posted at 9:02AM, Feb. 26, 2008

i think i know how to solve everyone's rantings…

Posted at 12:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

i think i know how to solve everyone's rantings…

"Free hugs"? Who's "Hugs"?

Oh, I'm just kidding! Thank you for making our day, subcultured! :)

My hugs aren't for free, though.

Posted at 2:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

i think i know how to solve everyone's rantings…

"Free hugs"? Who's "Hugs"?

I think he means FreeHugs, it's an open source Haskell interpreter.

Posted at 3:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

I'm on a palm with spotty service. Sure it's better than nothing, but it is irritating.

Oh, and fuck Pakistan and anywhere else with no Bill of Rights. That still includes Canada.

Posted at 6:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

i think i know how to solve everyone's rantings…

Hugs from that guy? I think I'll pass. :P

Another HAIR rant..

My hair is just.. pissing me off. One side of my hair has decided that it's fashionable to grow longer than the other side.. so It (was) all long and curly and crap. Everyone bothers me about it.. I've been trying to straighten out.. cut.. just plain FIX that damned side of my head for over a year. Even folks in the SALON wouldn't level it out the way I wanted it to.

So, senior class cap and gown pictures were coming up last week. My mom begged to go to the salon and get all prettied up for it.. but I was way too lazy to schedule an apointment. I was busy working on like.. 3 projects.. I didn't want to lose any time..

This morning I tried leveling out that longer side of hair. I lopped off a lot, but it looked good in the mirror.

Later on I wait hours and hours to get my picture taken, constantly straightening up my facial makeup (not much) and my frizzy, un-done hair. I take the pictures and everything seemed fine.

At the end of the day, I got the proofs. HOLY FREAKING HELL. One side of my hair was long, curly, and funky-looking, while the other side looked super short. Turns out I had pushed the longer part of my hair behind me, so it didn't show up. And a LONG as it took those photographers to reassure me I looked fine.. they either didn't notice at ALL or just felt like lieing to me. (I'm pretty sure they lied) They seemed very concious of how the photograph looked, not the cheap photogs that just snapped a picture and yelled "NEXT!".

I showed the damn proofs to my "friends" and they all laughed. Even people who weren't friends. I would've laughed along.. but I was extremely pissed off. I should have just curled my damn hair.. it wouldn't have looked so stupid..

I got home today and immediately lopped off a lot of that longer side of hair. It looks a lot better.. I just wished it looked like this earlier..

Posted at 6:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

I'm on a palm with spotty service. Sure it's better than nothing, but it is irritating.

Oh, and fuck Pakistan and anywhere else with no Bill of Rights. That still includes Canada.

…

You're… you're kidding, right?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Implied_Bill_of_Rights
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canadian_Bill_of_Rights
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canadian_Charter_of_Rights_and_Freedoms

Posted at 9:02PM, Feb. 26, 2008

"Free hugs"? Who's "Hugs"?

I think he means FreeHugs, it's an open source Haskell interpreter.

Oh. Uh, I knew that…

Posted at 1:02PM, Feb. 27, 2008

I have started wearing my new glasses while playing the computer as the doctor told me too (though it's hard to remember not to lean forward)…in a way it does seem to have helped. My left eye at least doesn't feel like it's bulging out of my head so much anymore. (I found out that was because my left eye is not as strong as my right.)

Though every now and then I'll get a sudden and rather HUGE dizzy spell. If it lasted more than a couple of a seconds I would probably eventually pass out. I'm assuming it's the mix of comicking and recent load of Guild Wars and Ragnarok free servers I've been playing with my sister…but this has happened a couple of times the last few months, even before the mmorpgs. I always think I need to take more breaks…but there is so little for me to do that doesn't involve a computer or tv or some kind of screen right now. I have no books to read. Nothing. And no libraries nearby to start borrowing from. Can't go outside, too cold. All I usually do when I take a break is lie on my bed….and I don't have much interest in doing that for very long.

Guess it's just a matter of thinking about buying a book or something when I'm out one day. But I am really tired of this crap. The headaches and the freaky dizzy spells, I just want to do what I freakin' want and stop worrying about stuff. Grr. XO

I need to work on a comic page today too…but if this keeps acting up… (As I type this it is.)

Posted at 1:02PM, Feb. 27, 2008

…

You're… you're kidding, right?

Pray to Allah he is. :/

Sorry. That was somewhat cruel and tasteless

Posted at 6:02PM, Feb. 27, 2008

Its ironic. How my parents are hardcore catholics while their kids arent.

I have my own custom-built belief that combines Christianity with New Age spirituality. While my brother is more of an atheist who thinks science explains everything.

The irony of life. lol!

Posted at 9:02PM, Feb. 27, 2008

There must be a virus going around to webcomic artists. I have this as well. So does OzoneOcean and Skullbie.

I hate it!!! I'm like 8 pages away from finishing this issue and can actually take a break but I just don't feel like it. Getting more annoyed and depressed combined with recent real life issues as well. Not only that but it's adding to my sense of self doubt.
For some reason I am thinking I am not good enough more and more. That I am not improving enough. Agh, got to get to drawing!

I guess I can join that crowd too. Lately I feel like I'm just not coming up with as good of material as I used to. I feel like I'm becoming unfunny or something. It's probably just me, but I can't shake the feeling that I'm not putting out my best.

It really doesn't help that I'm getting so damn distracted. I'm working for myself now and while I'm getting decent business it seems like I never stop working. On top of that, classes have picked up a lot and I need to focus on them especially. Now that I've been accepted to a full university I need to keep my grades up.

I'm getting worn out. I think I just need a vacation or something to blow off some steam and do nothing for a while.

Posted at 9:02PM, Feb. 27, 2008

i think i know how to solve everyone's rantings…
Hugs from that guy? I think I'll pass. :P

that's meh :(

Posted at 12:02AM, Feb. 28, 2008

with as good as i've been feeling the past couple days….i've come to question what's going on.(i can't not question good things)…i mean, am i just suppressing these thoughts, the feelings and others that should come with what's going on. and then i'm going to just break down at a later date. or have i truly given up. does it actually mean nothing to me anymore…am i really….over it?

the good news is i've been able to maintain my weight. which means i'm gaining muscle and loosing fat……

Posted at 9:02AM, Feb. 28, 2008

It's impossible to get the top scores on the drunkduck games when there are people who have made accounts just so they can send their high scores all the time.
They don't even have any other purpose than annoying people who want the top scores.
:mad:

Posted at 10:02AM, Feb. 28, 2008

Work, school, comics, enjoying life. Pick any three of them that you want.

Posted at 2:02AM, Feb. 29, 2008

Ugh, I've got a project that's two weeks late now, if I get it done before twelve I might be ok, but that's two hours away.

I have to finish it at home as well because the room at college I wanted to use was booked for a lecture. I know if I do it here I won't get it done because I'll just sit and procastinate, like I'm doing right fucking now.

There must be a virus going around to webcomic artists. I have this as well. So does OzoneOcean and Skullbie.

I've got it so bad I can't even start, nothing I do seems good enough to display to potenially thousands of people, or even just a few.

Whinge.

WHINGE.

Posted at 6:02AM, Feb. 29, 2008

Apparently I figured out what my problem was. Yesterday I came down with a horrible stomach bug. I guess it had been lying dormant most of the week just throwing me off enough to not want to work.

I fell like 30 kinds of horrible as I type this. At least I stopped hallucinating and throwing up every 10 minutes -_-

I just ache A LOT!

Posted at 7:02AM, Feb. 29, 2008

Its amazing how bullshit MASSIVELY outnumbers truth in the internet.

Posted at 6:03PM, Mar. 1, 2008

In a way, I find it so stupid how some people in chat rooms can be.

It doesn't occur to them that if they found somebody to be annoying or overly creepy, that they could ask the person to stop. No, they just instead kick and or ban that person without even expressing their feelings in the first place.
Most people would usually comply when asked nicely enough, after all.

Some people seems to assume that I type whatever pops into my head, but I don't. I talk about what I think people might find interesting, and half of it is more of a miss than it's a hit. But that's life for you. Not everything you find interesting might be the same for other people.
And it couldn't hurt those same people to just tell me that it bores them, and it also wouldn't hurt for them to suggest a different topic that everyone in the chat room would be interested in.

After all, if you don't like the topic, CHANGE IT.

And if some people find me too creepy for their tastes…. well, I'm a fucking goth. Who did you expect, Betty Crocker?

Also, at times they also fail to recognize that they too can be overly annoying too…From my end I've seen them do the following:
1. talk about whatever popped into their heads
2. Spammed a lot. In fact today when I logged into there, they were flooding the chat-room with "YEEEEAAAAHHH" and "WHHHAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTT"

"Golly gee, I guess it's only alright to be annoying if you're doing the same exact things as everyone else."

Also– saying I take things on the Internet too seriously…Go take a long hard look in the mirror, babe. :p
keeping records of everything I've ever said from the past year, and using them to build some twisted image of me as a means to justify being rude to me on so many different levels. You can't even tell when I'm joking, and you take everything I ever said so seriously. Otherwise why keep track of everything I've ever said and done?
Come to think of that, That also reeks of being a way more creepier person than I could ever be.
Wouldn't it be just easier to ignore me than to go to such insane lengths….

Okay, venting over.

Posted at 6:03PM, Mar. 1, 2008

Its amazing how bullshit MASSIVELY outnumbers truth in the internet.

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Posted at 8:03PM, Mar. 1, 2008

That image implies that hugs usually require some cost. Personally I've never charged or paid for a hug in my life… Not with money anyway. lol!
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Rant- my latest page just doesn't want to get finished, it's the page's fault not mine. How could it be mine? It's not ok.

I can't blame my computer anymore, it's a nice new beautiful one that works perfectly… I can't blame the weather, it's nice here at the moment, not too hot… I can only half blame work, half of it is easy and at home so I've no trouble doing comics, the other half takes 5 hours away each day, but that's hardly a killer…

Nope, either I'm stupid or it's the page.
Ok, Maybe I am stupid.

Posted at 8:03PM, Mar. 1, 2008

That image implies that hugs usually require some cost. Personally I've never charged or paid for a hug in my life… Not with money anyway. lol!

Speak for yourself. I usually charge an hourly rate.

Posted at 10:03PM, Mar. 1, 2008

friday was payday….today i payed all my bills….i put in double what i normally do…excluding rent…yet i still have a massive amount of money in my account…triple what i would have, if i had done that a month ago…. what happened? i never said she liked to spend my money…i know it wasnt all her…i enjoy having stuff too…maybe love is blind…i dont know….

and also looking back. was it love that made me blind, or just wanting someone? i mean, i did love her. but most people would have stopped the relationship at a certain point. stubbornness? not wanting to become another statistic in a sadly growing majority? all of the above?

i'm slowly starting to accept this future…i have a relapse every now and then…. but it's only when i've done absolutly nothing for hours on end…

my muscles are getting huge…i'm spending hours in the gym…and less time by a computer…but it's also taking away from my comic…(add me to the list of unmotivated artists)…but i'm spending less money as well…3 more trips in the next year…..

Posted at 3:03PM, Mar. 3, 2008

Stupid Sonic…stupid food poisoning…stupid projectile vomiting…